whoa who are you
why would you come here
you've met with a terrible fate, haven't you
damn I feel some kind of bizarre all-over discomfort tonight
it’s not soreness or anything just a weird, tight feeling of skin-crawly unease
how can I give myself a concussion because its gonna take a lot for me to finally get to sleep
As an excerpt from a comment I made on someone’s status:
I can explain this.
Those of us with higher intellects or super-analytical minds are often plagued with mental disorders, especially depression, bipolar, or anxiety. The reason for this is because our brains operate on a level that is often multiple steps above the norm. Our brains are evolved in that we have that higher intellect, or the ability to analyze everything perfectly, but unfortunately, to make room for that ability, we have to sacrifice that neurotoxin that makes us feel at ease; we sacrifice the ability to be unhindered by on-going depression, anxiety, or intense mood swings.
Ever hear someone say that they’d rather be stupid and happy than smart and depressed? We have the subconscious ability to overanalyze and over-think EVERYTHING (not just our relationships), and to perceive what actually is, instead of what the first instinct would tell us to see. For instance, someone may see a homeless person, feel bad, and move on. Someone like me, I see a homeless person and almost feel every ounce of agony and hurt they have felt to lead them to this position- mostly because I can perceive why they are possibly in that position.
Oftentimes, medication and therapy do not work well, if at all. More often than not, those closest to us suffer also because of the hurt and issues we have, though we don’t mean it to happen this way.
Ever wonder why when you make a new friend whose intelligence and interests are similar to yours, that they are afflicted with similar mental issues? (if this has happened to you, that is.) It is because we, as human beings at our core, are programmed to find like individuals to go through things with, instead of facing them alone- things that wouldn’t normally plague your everyday average Joe.
This is also why you get upset about things that pass so easily- seeing those ASPCA commercials, hearing about someone that you don’t know committing suicide, someone else’s sadness bringing you to tears; the cognitive function of your brain has turned you into not only an antenna, but an empath.
The only thing we can do is truck on, keeping those we love close and trying our very hardest to be well-adjusted (on the outside) pseudo-happy people. Sometimes it works for a short time, but ultimately, you should learn to harness your potential. It keeps your mind busy and doesn’t leave time for depression or anxiety.
well cool now im Actually Mad
this is an excerpt of a fb status comment. an EXCERPT.
feelings are hard
is it rude to tell someone “you’re pretty and I’d totally be all about making out with you if I didn’t hate myself so much”